So the hospital got their shipment of H1N1 flu vaccine in last Thursday. I was off but thankfully Monday they had four needles left and I was able to take it. Since then, I've not felt so great. Just tired and constantly burning up. I had a fever blister the other day.

At first I wasn't going to get the shot, but after hearing my parents and friends say that they would love to have a chance to get it (many places like Walgreens that offer the shot make people pay $30 for it), I caved and took it. Who am I to slap a gift horse in the mouth? I don't regret it, and I can still function pretty well and even complain (lol) at top notch speed ;o) but since Monday my stomach churns if I eat anything like sausage and I'm always burning up and have a stuffy nose. *sigh*

I think I'll be okay though. I don't even think it's the shot, could very well be my imagination or bad sleeping habits. *shrugs*

Ahhhh life, how splendid thy are. lol. :p

I had fun at my family's home last weekend. We went to the Barn Dance. This is hilarious. They started playing a zydeco song and I was talking with my friends when someone pushed me. So I turned and looked and saw these two girls doing some kind of wierd dance. It wasn't until one of them fell on the ground looking like a disturbed beetle swinging her arms and legs that we realized it was a fight. Of course, it's two stupid 15 year olds swatting each other. *sigh* Still was kind of funny. That was at 7:30. I left at 9:30 and they had at least five fights afterwards. They had to make an announcement over the speakers that fighting wouldn't be tolerated and anyone seen fighting would get tazed. yeah. So me and my friend went home and watched GI Joe. lol...a good movie to watch after watching other people fight no?

We had a really good Sunday. My grandma was soo cute in the parade. XD My parents' cats ate my BBQ plate lunch :(, and I almost got motion sickness on the Tilt-a-Whirl. It was still fun though. :)

It felt great to get home though. I was so tired. I slept like a baby that night and was able to mentally handle work Monday. That was the reason I had taken the 3 days off. I was just mentally exhausted.

Friday before the festival, me and another friend went to Lafayette do some shopping. We had so much fun. XD We ate like Queens at Piccadilly, did some serious shopping and more eating at Barnes & Nobles, then went walk the Mall of Acadiana. On the way back, we got lost in Opelousas (lots of one ways) and almost ended up in Ville Plate. Very funny. My dad tripped when I told him. "What! You could have been mugged! yada yada yada". Okay sure. I want to see them run after a vehicle going 60 mph. Go for it if it makes you happy. tsk. The only thing I was worried about was Jeepers Creepers. lol. I hate that movie. -__- *shudders*

Monday was a pretty decent day. But before I could tell you about my small dissappointment, let me give some background history. Wednesday my dad calls and tells me that he found some beautiful land in the Leblanc settlement and that he was going to take a loan out on it. Thus began my emotional rollercoaster. I was scared because I wasn't sure if I was going to like this land, wasn't sure if I was ready to make a huge committment, confused that he would even want to sacrafice over $20,000 in loans with the bank for me, and wondering how my sisters would treat me afterwards. That was Wednesday night. Thursday I got in the car and drove over to the Leblanc settlement to find the land. I kind of liked it. It would have made a nice ranch. I've always wanted a small farm. I was still confused and worried and spoke with my dad about it over and over. Friday, my friend, poor thing, had to bear with it and my yacking (Bless you Kristina). But by Saturday I was starting to become excited. I was starting to envision the beautiful herb and vegetable garden I want to plant, the small donkey that I may get later down the road and a horse and some cows, the cute little cottage I'd call home (although according to my dad he was going to get a small portable building, put a toilet in and let me have at it although I wouldn't have minded that at all, atleast it'd be mine to work on) and all sorts of other wonderful things. I was telling everyone about it such was my newly found hope. Then Monday my mom and dad called to tell me that they weren't getting the loan because the interest rates were too high. I was a bit dissappointed but sort of happy at the same time. I was dissappointed to lose the gardens and put the dream on the back burner but happy because I knew I wasn't really ready yet.

That was the last of my good news. Next came the bills. *sigh* I had a check up last month with the Internal Med. Dr. Got a bill for $204.00. Thought I'd be okay paying $20 a month but they sent me a bill this month with late fees costing me $235.00. So I wrote a check for half the amount and went pay it today. The woman told me that my balance was now $0.00. I was very confused. She had to explain to me that I get a discount b/c I work for the Hospital. God Bless! so I was happy I didn't have to pay the rest, but found out that my sink got backed up and flooded my kitchen this afternoon. The apartment got it fixed but it leaks at the bottom. I think it's because I use the dish washer. Stupid machine. >_< You're supposed to make my life simple not harder. *sigh* My mom's cousin died of pancreatic cancer Tuesday night. All in all, the weekend was fun but then life came back. The good part is that I didn't blow up or get depressed. Instead, I wrote a small entry in one of my journals at home about what happened, took a deep breath and ate a chocolate/vanilla swirl pudding cup. I didn't get upset or depressed. Yay me! I think I handled it pretty well. Now when I got off from work, I was abit stressed but I took care of that by running in the park, which is how I ended up here because I was on my way home and figured I'd make an entry and check out a new book.

Which reminds me, I was at Books-A-Million the other day when I ran across some really good classic books for sale (paperback) for $5.00. One of them was Charlotte Bronte's Jane Eyre. I read 5 chapters right then and there and fell in love with it. I'm going to check it out here at the library and finish reading it before I go back to buy the book. Still have bills to pay. -_- They come first.

And I'm pleased to say that I'm getting a heck of a lot more disciplined with my diet. I'm in love with subway's oven roasted chicken breast. I like to put mayo, honey mustard, onions, lettuce, tomatoes, pickles, and olives on mine. so delicious! I even went and bought all the ingredients for me to make it at home. YUM! And also like to saute' some bell peppers and put that on the sandwich too. Damn, I'm getting hungry again. lol. But I already ate and I need to get home to watch The Biggest Loser and lift my little 3 lb weights. Not much, but it's a start.

I hope every one is doing great! Catch you all later!!!!

I'M OFF FOR 3 DAYS! I'm so happy about that. :)

I'm going home this weekend because of our annual festival to see my grandma who was crowned Nursing Home Queen. I'm excited b/c I'll be able to meet up with all my old buddies. Friday I'm going Christmas shopping in Lafayette. :)

Everything seems to be going really good. I have no complaints. I'm still debating on whether or not to take the Swine Flu Vaccine as the hospital received their shipment in. My parents said they would take it if they had the choice. I joked with them that I didn't think I'd catch the flu because it would have to compete with all my other illnesses. lol. But just as a precaution, I just may get the shot. I already got my normal flu shot.

Another exciting thing to happen to me is that someone finally replied to my entry at geneology.com. I will have to email him for more information though. I'm so excited about that. :)

I went to suddenlink today (cable company) to see how much it would be for me to get rid of my cable and just have Internet. I'm paying $28.54 for basic cable (all locals channels w/ only the addition of TBS, USA, CW, & Disney). If I got rid of my cable and only got basic internet, then it would cost me around $40.00. If I got the package again, around $60.00. I have a converter box, but before I tell them to kill the switch, I want to see if I can save enough money to pull off keeping my cable since Internet for me will be a thing of the past for a while longer. :(

Ok, well, I hope everyone is doing okay. The weather here is beautiful and I've got loads of chores and other wonderful things to get done before my trip home. :) I hope you all have a good day or night! Weeeeee!

Well, today's a big day. My grandma's birthday and class reunion. I was going to take her eat out at Peking's (she loves the boiled crawfish/shrimp) but after paying off my car note and having one more bill to pay, my poor check book was screaming at me 'NO MORE!' Well, it would if I had any checks. I forgot to order some more and ran out. So now, I just have an empty wallet. Okay, it's not empty. I have loads of receipts and bills in it. The bad thing is that I've slowly been Christmas shopping. You never realize how many sticken people you have to shop for till you actually start doing the shopping. We're almost October so I feel the heat on my back. I got my little sister's gifts. She's done. I'm working on my mom, dad, older sister, & grandma. Then on to every one else. lol. What also sucks is that every one of my family and friends has birthdays starting in October and ending in March. I get no reprieve. lol.

So anyway, I have a Dr.'s appt at 9:45 and a retirement fund meeting with the Hospital at 11. From there I'm going to drive home, pick up some food, and then hit the Interstate and try to be back home with the Family around 1:30-2:00. From there, it's calling multiple people and getting set up to go to the class reunion. I've been praying that I don't fee too uncomfortable. I wasn't exactly close with my class. I don't even know why I'm going. It's a mix of my mom being up my rear "I don't know where ya'll come from not wanting to do this!" *sigh*, my grandma's birthday, and me just wanting to do something while there. I'm more nervous about it than anything else.

Also, the Hospital is sponsering the Heart Walk. Our Heart & Vascular Center does this every year and they make every one in the hospital participate. I'm excited about it because last year I was so horrible at it. Last year, they made me team captain. I didn't have a clue as to what I was doing and none of the women I worked with would talk with me about it or help me out. They just went behind my back and did what they normally would do for that sort of thing. This year I'm more prepared. I know what to do, what's going on, and how to do it. They still don't listen to me though or answer my questions. It's horrible for me to say, but I have to nag them and then they catch attitude with me. Well, one of them does. I don't like her very much. She's only got five years till retirement then I don't have to put up with her anymore. It's just hard to do or give ideas unless I'm good with at least one person in the "clique".  Sad to say that I like and feel more comfortable around the guys than I do with the women. They make me feel so out of touch and stupid. I hate it. I can't participate without one of them saying my ideas aren't going to work or that I'm stupid. They don't tell flat out, but the tone of voice and choice words sure do sting from time to time. But I'm a fighter. I'm not going anywhere. So they better damn well get used to me. I already had to push to find out a time for when we do are raffle ticket sales (I have donation letters to send out too grrr). We haven't even had  a meeting yet on what activities we are going to do. I understand that everyone is busy bringing in the new servers and stuff but the least they can do is give me some tips or show a bit more interest. I'm busy too but it's fun to get out of the normal routine and do something worth while.

Anyway, I hope every one is doing well. I'm going to try and catch up by reading every one's post later. It's 9:00 and I have to get to the Hospital parking garage so I'm not late for my appointment. Wish me luck. I'll let you all know how it went when I get back. :o)

Well, I've decided I'm not going to go to my class reunion. It's too soon since high school, I know what everyone is doing, and it's my grandma's birthday that day anyway. So I figure I'll just take off and spend time with family and friends instead of feeling uncomfortable with people I never really were close too.

One of my good friends is moving to Boston this week. He just returned from Italy a month ago, enjoyed the hell out of it but was glad to be home, and now he's leaving. I went to see him sing today at his church. It was a very overwhelming experience. I'm Catholic but I went to the Methodist church to hear him sing his solo in the choir. He was brilliant as always and the people were very nice. I say it's overwhelming because normally when you step into a Catholic church it's quiet & a bit somber because of the people praying. At the Methodist church, you walk in and every one is greeting you. In my case it was questions of: What's your name? Are you new here? Are you going to the college? Is this your first time? Just many questions like that. I didn't mind answering any of them but felt kind of out-of-place with all the curiousity going around. My buddy said they were just excited to see a new face. Boy what an understatement. I made a mental memo to myself to not sit in the back by the door next time. I'll just find a cosy corner in the back to hide away. The best part was that they sang a lot so my cat scratch voice was hidden by the wonderful singing of people who could hold a tone. XD Anyway, it was a lovely service with wonderfully nice albeit curious people, lol, and about an hour later I found myself and my friend sitting and visiting at StarBucks. We visited a good two 1/2 hours before I waved goodbye to him a final time and promised to mail him sausage and good seasonings on the chance that Boston doesn't have good Cajun food. ;O)

My older sister wants badly to move to Boston. She went there two years ago for a work related trip and came back a different person. She wants to move there because she fell in love with it. I told her to get a move on it so we can have a summer vacation spot lol. You can imagine the piercing look I got there. :oP But I still think it would be nice. I've never seen the Atlantic Ocean. I would love to see clean water for once with no oil drills dotting the beaches. I myself would love to visit M.I.T. I was watching NOVA SCIENCE NOW on LPB one night when they introduced a woman named Yoky. She is a leading pioneer in robotic neuro science (developing prosthetic limbs that will attach to nerve endings to give people who lost limbs are have non-functioning limbs ones that work). I fell in love with her and since then I have been wanting to do research on Robotics and Neuro Science. *Good thing I'm at the library.* Unfortunately, I'll probably never get the chance to visit the place or even go back to school for Robotics. I don't have the money. :(

It's strange how I went to school for one thing and got a job doing something different and have fallen in love with some of the technology, or what I've been able to learn and teach myself as I'm going along. It's all very interesting stuff. Truly it is. :o)

Well, I've got to go. We finally got one of the first cold fronts of the year. It's still hot but the weather isn't nearing over 100 degrees anymore. Now it's more like 90 degrees outside. This morning I could have cried when I felt the cool air on my arms. I know this will sound corny, lol, but it did feel like a soothing caress.

Ok. I've got to go now. Limited computers here at the library and there are people waiting. I hope every one has a good week! Check ya'll later!

Jamie

Have any of you ever wonder where your family comes from? What are the roots and how deep do they go? I've been wondering that question for the past few months, so a few weeks ago, I decided that I would look up my family heritage on both my dad and mom's side. Now, I know I'm undertaking a huge responsibility since both sides have common names with huge families and various branches. But I suppose that's why I'm looking it up. I just keep wondering if there is any one famous in my family, do we have a coat of arms, or were they just them. Questions like that. I also wanted to know all of this because my dad is a huge historian and loves this sort of thing. His birthday is the day after Christmas so I always have problems finding him a good present. This year, it'll be our family history.

My dad is estranged from his family, so I myself don't know much about them, but I figured I start with my great grandparents: a Bergeron and a Matte-and then to my grandparents: Browns.

So far, I was able to get a bit of information on the Bergeron family. They come from France, fought with Jeanne D'Arc at Orleans, came to Nova Scotia, did loads of piratering, and just all sorts of things. The thing though is that it stopped way before my great grandpa, so I'm not exactly sure if it's the correct line. All I know is that my grandfather came from the Church Point area and had some Choctaw in him while my great grandmother was micmac. Unfortunately, no one really knows where she came from? I'd have to get in touch with some of my dad's family, but if he were to find out...whoa! But anyway, I figure that it would be worth it.

My mom's maiden name was Langley, so I've also been trying to find information on them as well. Just like the Bergerons, this family is also a common name and wide spread. Don't even get me started on the Brown family.

I've got my work cut out for me, but so far it's been fruitatious, at least with the Bergeron's. Hopefully soon, I can get all of my information and be done. I just hope my dad likes it. :o)

Speaking of my dad: he just left not that long ago to head back home. He came and met me today to look for some land to buy. Yep, hopefully I'll be a landowner by the end of the year as my rent is going up again at the end of my lease in December. If that happens I can kiss my cable good bye. *sigh*

I'm going to go and watch that movie "Julie & Julia" about a woman named Julie who is cooking through Julia Child's cook book. It looks fun and entertaining. Many people went watch it and said it was pretty good.

G.I. Joe was also a good flick. I enjoyed that one as well except we sat two rows from the screen and I had to crane my neck up just to watch(the theatre was that full). I got a bit sick but it was worth it.

School for the bad no good little gnomes                kids is starting this week. Good. I'm tired of fighting crazed five year olds trying not to step on them and dodging disrespectful teens while they talk and text. News for the wise: if your kid can't talk and walk at the same time or even text, they shouldn't be driving. -_-

The only good news is that August is almost over which means that September is coming and then the COLD FRONTS! MWHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA! I'm through with this heat. I'm done. I'm tired. Now come January/February I'll be ready for the sun again but right now, I'm tired of this darn heat.

Anyway, I hope every one is doing okay. I'm doing fine. Just gliding through life. Or trying too anyway. Seems that when you get a raise, every body else has to raise their prices. *sigh*

So good to be back. So much, so much has been going on. I don't even know where to start!

I got a raise at work! Finally, after waiting a year and two months, I got a little .27 raise. I'm so excited about that.

I've been looking for land to build my house on...in the future of course. I thought about a small whole in the woods called Hecker. A nice private place where I can have B-B-Q's & friends till late at night with out the cops getting called on me but neighbors close enough that if something were to happen, I'd have some help near by. My dad is bound and determined to have me near the interstate. *rolls eyes* The man is hard headed like a freakin wood peaker or something. He wants me and my older sister to go in together on buying land. She'd live on one side and I on the other. That's not going to work. She's more city and I'm more country. It's not going to happen. Sorry dad. -__-

My grandma almost died a week past. Her kidneys gave out but thankfully the Doctors caught it in time and she's back safe and sound in the nursing home.

My mom is opening a part time notary business at my grandma's old house. My little sister is staying there with a demented dog (more later on this). I took off two days from work just to go over there and move furniture. I was the only one moving furniture. Took me three damn days, but I got it done AND found my old Johny Quest tapes. Yeah, I had fun watching those episodes. :o)

Now that damn dog. My little sister hates being alone and so decided she'd get a dog. My mom said yes as long as it was a little dog. What does she do? Goes and gets a golden labrador puppy. I'm not a fan of dogs, more a cat person, but a kind of fell in love with the dog. Her name is Diamond. I walked her twice Thursday while there, but couldn't do so the next two days. The damn dog is bad. It bites. I bled twice from the beast. That's when I started kind of disliking the dog. Then she jumps and barks and acts all crazy. -__- I was scared to sleep at my grandma's house with the insane psycho pup so I went sleep at my mom and dad's. They have lots of cats there. One is named Mr. Bentley. He's so cute but kept me up an hour wanting to be hugged and played with.

*sigh* ahhh, animals.

I went see the new Harry Potter movie last Saturday with my friend. It was such a good movie and I had such a good time. It felt great to get out the house. I really enjoyed the movie. Malfoy's character has really come along. He's 21 and looks pretty good. Not as good as that guy who will be playing Jacob in that stupid Twilight Sequel, but still good enough. I say that b/c the guy playing Jacob is only 17. -__- When I found that out, I felt horrible. He's not even old enough to buy liquor. Oh well, he's still nice to look at. :o)

Sunday night I went with another friend and watched The Hangover. Some parts I didn't like but other than that the movie was really funny and entertaining.

My diet hasn't been going anywhere. I still weigh the same. It's hard to lose weight when you have no motivation. Well, my dad and mom are both diabetics. My dad is dying slowly. Every year he gets worse and worse. Of course this has been going on since I was little. So this weekend, me and him had a talk. He looked at me and said.

"Is this how you want to live the rest of your life?" He was talking about how he couldn't eat anything without running to the bathroom, not being able to fight off colds (very low immunity system), always being tired and in pain. When i got home Sunday, I promised myself to fight the good fight. I got motivation then. I even wrote a small paper on why I should eat right and excercise and posted it near my stove. I gave myself plenty of reasons. So far, so good. Fish tacos, salads, sandwiches...just trying to eat healthy, although I've been eating chocolate every now and then. I've got to slowly wean myself off of that. I even went back to my walking.

My five year class reunion is coming up. I don't really want to go. I was never close to anyone and I know I'll just feel uncomfortable.

I started writing an original piece. It's still in the works, but it's an idea I've been flipping back and forth in my head for some time now. I have a lot of decision making to make on it though: should it be romance & comedy, sci fi, fantasy? Written in first or third? things like that. Then I don't have my characters fully meched out yet. They are coming along but slowly.

I've been reading this book called Pride & Prejudice & Zombies. It's basically Pride & Prejudice w/ zombies. It's kind of boring. I was looking for a quirky fun piece to read. *sigh*

okay, i think that's about it for right now. I'm going to go and watch the G.I. Joe movie tomorrow night with some friends from work. I hope it'll be good. I'll let you guys know.

And thanks so much to Kaya! I love love love love love the movie booklet you sent me. I'm bound and determined to find someone to translate it for me. I could probably take it to the college and find someone. They have a manga/anime club. Who knows? :o)

Okay then, talk to you awesome peps later!!!!!

It feels like 100 degress outside and it's so humid my sinuses hurt. I just want to pass out. The allegra isn't working so well.

They cut off my cable. I was only supposed to get basic which is local channels plus TBS but they had been giving me more than that, like CN and Food Network, but yesterday someone cut it off. I'm now wondering if having only local channels and TBS is even worth the $28.99 I pay every month.

I've been battling myself once again floating on that line between 'i-hate-myself' depression and semi-normalcy. I know I need to see a doctor about this, but I just don't want too since riding around burning rubber helps me out a lot.

This week, though it's been peaceful and heavenly, has been good and bad for me. I've been able to rest but thru all this rest I've had lots of time to think. I've been thinking about my life, my family and friends, and the future. I've been thinking about how immature and selfish I've been. With words out of my own mouth, I've hurt people or led others to think wrongly about other people. I'm such a monster. Truly I am. I'm constantly floating on that line. After two weeks of good rest though, I finally was able to pull myself up and start thinking about what I could do to remedy my hatefulness and selfishness. I complain about my friends, but I really love them. I haven't realized that complaining will turn them from me and one day leave me lonely and desolate. I've truly been blessed with what I have: a comfortable place to live, loving family, supportive friends, wonderful buddies on the internet, and a dream job.

These last few days, I stop and think to myself "When did you settle?" I ask this because I have a friend who is going to live in Italy for two years and then move to Boston, a friend in Austen, Tx; a cousin who moved to Tennessee, and friends/family who have traveled cross-country and international while I'm stuck at home. I'm 23 years old and yet I feel settled. Everything in life has become routine. I hate to say I was actually jealous of my family/friends.

My dad made a good point the other day when I told him this. Then he told me something that I knew was true but didn't want to see. I have a purpose for being where I'm at.  A purpose for not moving or doing things that others are doing. God has a plan for me. And maybe he does.

I went to confession yesterday at church (I'm catholic). It didn't feel as fullfilling as I thought it would, but it did help to get me back on the right track. I haven't been in 7 years.  Now that I'm a tiny bit wiser, I know that I can watch my words more closely and think before I speak. I feel loved and blessed to have what I do have. I've been thinking about volunteering for the church and helping out with some of its organizations. This will help to get me out of the house, meet new people, and maybe give me a bigger purpose in my life.

Anyway, hopefully, I can fight off the old me and emerge a newer better wiser me. Someone who will be a better friend, a more loving sister/daughter, and a fitting person to have a conversation with.

In short, I apologize to every one for my wierdness (although that will probaby never leave me lol) and for how selfish/childish I sound. Normally, when I write in my journals at home & even in this one, I never read them back because it's the past, done and over with, time to move forward, but what I hadn't realized until now is that in order for me to move forward, I sometimes must look back.

For everyone in this journal, I truly am sorry for not being a better live journal buddy. I apologize for my childishness. I pray and hope for the best for you all that no matter what life's journey is for you, it leads you to peace, joy, and happiness in the end.

As for me, I'll probably still be around, looking forward to the day I can kiss the cable man for putting my internet back on, and hopefull have better journal entries than what I have had hopeful that when I do get the courage to read back on this, I can say that "Yes, I've changed and all for the better." :o)

Last week, me and my best bud went to the Gulf. lol. It was so much fun. She came sleep over Friday and left Sunday. We had a great weekend. It was supposed to be anime filled (she brought a huge suit case with all of her tapes) but that got washed out when my VCR made an attempt to eat one of her beloved tapes. Friday, we went eat at Mount Fuji (Hibachi grill). Usually, we eat at the Hibachi but this time, we decided for a table. She ordered a bento box full of goodies and I got some Udon with a California roll. She never ate rolls before so I had her try mine. I think she loved it. lol. *devious smile* ohhh, I'm going to get her hooked on that stuff like I got her hooked on anime (of course, she got me back by getting me hooked on Due as Infinity -__-). It was even more fun when she ate some wasabi. I told her to take only a tiny bit. She did take a tiny bit but it was still too much. lol. I never seen someone chug down water so fast. XD

Saturday, on a whim, we decided to go to the Gulf. I got us lost of course. I'm Miss-No-Sense-Of-Direction. *sigh* We ended up on a road where no cars dared to pass and in some fields. I called my dad. Huge mistake as mr. panicky was trying to find out where I was. -_- He kept asking me if I was near hwy 90. All I could do was think to myself...'how am I going to know. I thought that's why I called you?' anyway, we ended up finding the main road and made our way down to Holly Beach and Rutherford. The beaches were pretty decent for once. It was my best buds first time out there, so she was excited. lol. We even had a one armed crab chase us. lol. Since Hurricane Rita hit they've been trying to rebuild.  A lot of the old beach bums were moved out and now some condos are coming in.

After the beach, we decided to head up to Port Arthur, TX & Orange back home. Port Arthur was pretty scary. Of course, we were on the wrong end of town. It looked gutted (Hurricanes Ike & Rita devistated that city) and nasty. I had to pee so bad too. We ended up at a red light and I can remember white knuckling it and screaming at the damn light. finally it turned and I drove like a maniac into McDonalds. It felt so good. XD Relief!!!! After that, we got back on the road and more paranoid. I kept thinking to myself 'if we make it out of here with all our hubcaps on the car, then that's a good thing'. lol. Yes, I'm not only miss gets lost but also a bit Ms. paranoid myself. Thanks dad for the gift. -__-

Orange was really nice. We finally made it back home and went eat at Olive Garden. Stuffed our faces was more like it. I love their bread sticks. Yum!! ^_^ Afterwards, we went to books-a-million where no good manga could be found. Maybe it's b/c I lost my internet, but I'm finding as the months go by, the more I lose my anime love. *sigh* we ended up back home laughing and talking and reading our book purchases. Okay, I read her book purchase. Romance novels. lol. *grins* They're corny but good to read if you want to relax. :)

Sunday was Father's Day. I didn't go see my dad. I saw him last week. My older sister brought me some food and went shopping. My bud left me ;_; but we shall do this again. It was far too fun not too.

One of my other friends just graduated from LSU. He's in performing arts and a terrific singer. He's moving to Italy for a year or two then to Boston. Lucky bastard. Everyone's leaving me and going off to do fun things. I feel as if I've settled. It's a horrible feeling to have. *sigh* oh well, I'm saving up money for vacations anyway. :)

It's 100 degree F over here and the humidity is really high. It's so stuffy it's hard to breathe. We have a heat wave / drought going on. it sucks. I just want to go and run into the water and swim. i have no bathing suit but shorts and a shirt wouldn't hurt, would it? I didn't think so. :o)

Work is going okay.  nothing major to report. In fact, for once in these past few months, I actually feel a bit at peace with myself. As if finally I can rest a bit. Scary......

Here's hoping to a really good summer!!

How's every one else doing????

I hope everyone is doing okay. I'm tired but alright. It's just the usual going on. Family fighting, certain friends annoying me with their clingy ness (yes, I did talk to her about it but she doesn't listen. So now I just don't answer her calls or text unless I'm ready to talk to her), my boring life that feels like it has no purpose. *sigh* Depressing ne? Sorry about that. I normally try not to get depressed, but most of the time fail.

The only good thing that I'm looking forward too is my best buddy coming to sleep over this weekend. She's bringing over all her old anime episodes and we'll be making an anime weekend of it. XD So excited about that.

This past weekend, I went stay at another friend's house. They have a swimming pool and got burned like a freshly boiled crawfish. Yikes!

I have lost some weight! Cheers for me!!! XD XD XD I went from a size 18 in pants to 14 and now can fit into 12s although they are a bit tight. So I'm still working on that.

I'm planning a one-day adventure coming up in the next two weeks. I figured I'd get up about 4am and make the 45 min drive down to the Gulf and watch the sun rise over the ocean. From there, I figured I'd walk the beach picking up seashells, let the water wash over my feet, and then make a drive up to Orange/Beaumont to eat somewhere and head back home. I just want to get the hell away from this place for a while. I think I'll even turn off my cell phone for the ultimate relaxation. I also want to go crabbing, but that'll be a later time.

It's going to be up in the 95 - 100 degree weather for the next 2 weeks. And just think, we're not even in August yet (one of our hottest months and strong month for Hurricane activity). I would love to be somewhere up North where it's cool.

Well, I hope my little LJ buddies are doing well. I miss being able to post every night and whenever I want and keep up with everything. But I'm steadily working on building back up enough money to do so. Hopefully, I'll have my internet back.

Okay then, I'm dying for some chicken. I'm having a chicken attack. I want some fried, greasy, unhealthy chicken w/ mashed potatoes & gravey, biscuit, and cole slaw. <---- says the girl who needs to lose weight. -__- Damn cravings.

Stolen from Laurie!!!


( YES / NO MEME )

wow! I have a lot of NOs in here. Might have to change some of those. hmmm....

Short update on the boring life of me:

1. Been up and down on the sick mobile for the past 3 weeks.

2. Been catching stress and hell at work. Every one is up and quitting.

3. Just been annoyed period. I think it's cause I've been sick and for once finally feel better.

The only good thing that's happened so far is that Saturday night my sister, me, and a friend went eat at Luna's Bar and Grill. They have a small court yard. We ate there about 8 at night with a nice breeze and no mosquitos, our only light being by candle. The food was terrific! We listened to three live bands play. The first sucked. The second was called Ashes of Babylon (my sister is in love with them and some kind of way became friends with the saxophonist. She's great at networking.) they're a regae band and very good. The third band was terrific as well. By the end of the night my sister successfully networked a new batch of friends to not only help herself but she could help them in return, my friend ended up almost getting a number from one of the cute guys she had been spying on all night (I say almost b/c she forgot to get his number even though they couldn't stop talking to each other. She got to meet him cause of my sister's great big talking mouth networking skills, and I ended up going home feeling pitiful as usual. *sigh* Although I think it was the wine). We got home at about 1am or 2. Can't remember. We left half way thru the 3rd band. I was just too tired to go on. I had taken some medicine before going out. All in all, a good night. I'd do it again.

Okay. That's it. told you...boring. lol. ;o)

Not to be a cynic, but I really dislike weddings. One ritual especially: Bouquet catching. It goes to say that if you are single, you must get herded with the other single girls onto the floor to catch the bride's bouquet. I don't understand why nor do I care. I just know I don't like doing it. It never fails though, every time I go to a wedding, even though I tell people NO, they still grab me and force me onto the floor. I don't know why. I don't want to catch the stupid thing, so what's the point? To point out and make fun of the single girls in the room? I just don't enjoy this part of the ceremony. I think it's dumb. Truly I do. I'm just not big on weddings period. I think it's because I'm extremely shy around people I don't know (weddings are breeding grounds for strangers) and you can't drink too much to get rid of the feeling (it's taboo and you're around family/friends), so the rest of the time you're stuck sitting between Aunt Jane Doe stuffing her face and loudly laughing while someone who is third cousin to the groom sits there trying to eat and fight off the kids.  It's especially bad with families around here . People around here get married extremely young. I'm talking out of high school young with a baby coming a year later. *sigh* Am I the only strange one for waiting my time out to have family and kids? Is there something wrong with me that I don't want a family of my own right now? Every where I look at Weddings, that's what it seems. Every time i turn around, someone is getting married or having a baby. It's aggravating. And then they are rounding you up..."single girl coming through!" catch the bouquet. >_<

*sigh* Weddings are fun or can be fun, but most of the time, I don't enjoy them.  I don't know why. I guess it's my own personal problem to learn to get over, but man, just leave me be about that stupid bouquet, and we won't have a problem.

Hey there F lists! Hope every one's doing well. Here's a summary of what's happening in my neck of the woods <---- Ya don't think Al from the Today show will be mad at me for taking that do you? ;o)

~ My lil sis is graduating high school May 15th. Her birthday is May 12th. Mother's Day is May 10th. & one of my friends b-day is tomorrow May 4th. Looks like my check will be a bit small this month.

~ The hospital is on red alert for that swine flu. Fortunately, we've not had any cases yet. We've had a few people come in with flu like symptoms, but none being the swine variety.

~ Contraband days has kicked off for the next two weeks. I want a funnel cake so bad. -__-

~ I'm getting better at my job, albeit slowly, although my confidence and security in it is still bland at most.

~ It's raining over here and I attempted to watch Stephen King's Red Rose on SciFi but to no avail. Watching scary movies isn't my thing no matter how corny they are. I still end up sleeping in the living room with the lights and t.v. on for a week. *sigh* Pathetic. I know.

~ Books-A-Million hasn't updated their Ouran High manga. Naruto looks like it's getting good again. They are doing well with updating their Bleach. I even managed to catch the english episodes on Adult Swim last night before calling it a night during the middle of Code Geass: Lelouch. I was just extremely tired. *sigh*

~ In fact, I was supposed to go to the club last night. My friend wanted to go and since we were riding around with nothing better to do, we decided to be spontaneous. Of course, this was when we discovered she lost her driver's license and had been driving around for a whole week with out it. We didn't find it last night, so I ended up at home watching Adult Swim. I wasn't angry or even dissappointed b/c I knew I'd go out again for my lil sis's graduation/b-day celebration in 2 weeks.

~ My 5 year class reunion is this year. Every one in my class is either married, has a kid, or is married with kids. I think there may be only a handful of us that has not yet bit the dust.

~ Every time I plan to go somewhere I've never been, I get rained out. I think my parents are wanting to go watch the dirt races this season. I want to go. It's been a while since I've watched the dirt car races at Thunder Valley.

~ I got my eye brows waxed for the first time yesterday. It stung but wasn't too bad. I'll probably regret doing it in a few weeks when my eyebrows will look like some fuzzy caterpillar up and died on my face. Yuck! lol. Although, that is a far stretch from the truth. I doubt it'll be that bad.

~ I've been thinking about joining the city orchestra. It's been a while since i've played my flute or read music, but a bit of practice and I should be okay.

Yep, life is just soooooo interesting for me right now. Wake up, eat, work, go to the park to work out, home, eat, read a book, bed. *sigh* The weekends aren't any better.  *heads table* I think there's something wrong with this picture. -__-

How has everyone been? I hope okay.

I've been doing fine. Nothing much to report except maybe that I've been craving rabbit food (vegetables, fruits) like a madwoman and reading books like crazy.

I went to visit my friend the other day and she let me borrow two big bags full of books and a few DVDs.

"Saving Juliet" is a cute, entertainingly fun read about a girl named Mimi Wallingford who gets thrown into Verona and mets the characters of Romeo and Juliet. It's a cute story that I would recommend to anyone who wants a fun light read or to people ages 16 and younger.

Since I'm a Jane Austin fan, I had to check out two sequel works done by other authors on "Pride and Prejeduce".
 
"The Darcy's and the Bingley's" was the first book I read. It was very comical, had a great plot, but I felt that it wasn't very close in-character with Jane Austen's originals. It's still a fun book to read but I recommend it to people ages 16 on up.

The second book that I'm currently reading and about to put away due to its not being satisfying at all is "Mr. Darcy Presents His Bride". Unlike the first book, this one is pretty similar to how Jane Austin would have written, although I found myself irratated to death at the authoresses portrayel of Elizabeth Bennet. If you enjoy a good, perfect Mary Sue of a character, then I implore you to read this book. You'll find every one of Jane's character's as flawed and ugly as criminals while Elizabeth is the only one who comes out perfectly angelic. I'm about to burn it except that it belongs to my friend. So instead, I'll just put it off to the side....for now.

Afterwards, I will start on the book series by Sara Dessen. My friend tells me they are great books and that she really wants me to read them. So, I just may start on these tonight while feasting on some corn and a bolagne sandwich. YUM!

The other day, I was cleaning out my computer desk when I came across the list that Laurie had sent to me of good reading material. I'm going to pull it out when I get home, stuff it into my purse, and bring it here to find those reads.

One last thing: Does anyone watch Comedy Central? And if so, did you see Krod Mandoon and the Flaming Sword last Thursday? I think I may have found a new obsession. lol. The show is crude at some points but hilarious at others. The characters have a present day feel even though they are supposed to be set in mid-evil periods. It plays tomorrow night at 9 after South Park. I can't wait to see it.  Sean Maguire plays Krod Mandoon. *sigh* He looks so good. But that's not the only reason to watch the show. They also have a wizard who can't do magic, a giant who is klutzy and too gentle, and a pagan witch who uses sex as her greatest weapon. <--big surprise there. But anyway, it's something to take your mind off the world at least.

Well, I hope every one has a good one. It's off to check my f-list, emails, and then home to hate Elizabeth Bennet Darcy and maybe watch that Final Fantasy DVD that's been starring at me since the weekend. ;o)

I detest the Twilight series. I don't care how many ravenous fangirls/boys come at me with their psycho stay-at-home mom's in tow. I know I said the movie wasn't so bad, and if you are a 14 year old, it's really not, but gosh it was hard to watch. I can't believe my older sister actually liked it. I told her to read the book series and that would cure her of any loving intentions.

When I first read the first book, I was intriguied and ready to give the second one a chance. After the second one, I wanted to burn the book series. Too bad it was my little sister's.  My friend and I had a 2 hour discussion yesterday about how some people were saying Stephanie Meyer was the next J.K. Rowling. I burst into fits of laughter and then got angry. There is no comparison people. None what so ever.

Sifirela made a great point about how Bella had no right to be emo. I agreed. Through the whole dang movie and book, the girl was hella emo and I just wanted to slap her teeth out her mouth. First off, she chose to go and live with her dad. No body forced her too. Second, he bought her a truck, tried to get close to her, and everything that he could think of to do. People at school immediately liked her, all the guys wanted to date her (mary sue anyone?) and all she could think about is ...... Edward. The stupid sparkling vampire. Pissed me off. *sigh*  Atleast Harry had a reason to be Emo. Bella didn't.

The movie was outrageous. When they were in the woods, it was extremely cheesy. And of course, wouldn't you wonder why Bella and Edward are sneaking off into the woods in the middle of school when every one can see them? Not good thinking skills. When she up and passed Edward and he followed, she just drops her book bag and they walk off into the woods in front of the other kids. Now wouldn't that make you wonder a bit? I know I would be like...hmmm somebody is getting some nokie in there!

Anyway, I just can't see the comparison. J.K. had foreshadowing, mystery, hilarity, and many other wonderful plot devices in her story. Stephanie doesn't. It was nothing more than a cheesy novel for tweens and if it wouldn't have become famous then it would have been turned into a horrible Harlequin romance. Which it was....for tweens.

Gah! I don't ever want to hear anybody compare Harry Potter to Twilight ever again! That's just wrong. -___-

On another book note: I decided to read: "The Darcy's & the Bingley's" by Marsha Altman. It's a continuation of Pride & Prejudice. I hope it's just as good. It should be, it has something about the Kama Sutra floating around in there.

It seems Bleach is once again picking up. The journals have been getting a bit more exciting. I mean, they normally are exciting but not with the same flare as Bleach. I hope it's not going to be one of those five or six chapter flings with great plot and then Kubo will slow it down again. He needs to not do that. Bad manga-ka, bad. bad. I need to see Rukia again. I've re-read all my old Bleach manga through and through from beginning to end of SS arc and I can't take it anymore. I can't take not having any thing new coming from it. It sucks cause I don't have internet to keep up with the chapters. ;_; But it'll be okay. As long as I can make it to the library once a week to check up on everything, I should be up with the chapters.

Anyway, my time is almost up and I'm surrounded by kids. *sigh* I don't mind, but when they start getting loud...yikes.

Ok then. Off to read my book.

Have a good week Jenni! I hope your faux court appearance goes well for you! And for every one else, I hope you all have an equally fantastic week!

Later!

It's been so long since I've posted in here. lol. I hope that everyone is doing well. The first day of spring was last week and already it's hot as hell down here. Of course, i've got a cough that won't go away and my nose won't stop running. I managed to survive winter but am getting beat up by Spring. Darn Pine Trees.

My little sister had her Prom Saturday night. It was really fun and she looked beautiful. We rented a limo (my first time riding in one) and that was awesome. We watched Twilight on the way to eat. The movie was alright. Something I tolerated for Julia <--my little sister, but I rank it like the books. Very depressing and it made me hate Bella Swan all the more. Sifirela, she beat out Relena in this one. All the way.

I also almost fell out of the limo and if the chauffer wouldn't have caught me, I'd have a busted lip. -__- Heals and long skirts don't mix. Julia had a good time before and after Prom, so that's always a good thing. She graduates High School May 15th.

I've not been doing much except going home, work, excercising, and going up and down with happiness and depression. There's never an inbetween. I sometimes wonder if I should seek medical help, but it's not gotten to that point yet. I can still control my mood swings and of course burn the gas in my car just riding around. But if it works, it works.

I've not gotten into any books lately. I've just been re-reading old ones at my house. I just finished Howl's Moving Castle. I think I'm going to try and get some books like Sir Walter Raleigh and such. It would help me get back to the originals. The library is having a book sale here today, I think I'll take a look at that as well. You can't beat .50 for a book or 4 books for a $1.

Anyway, I've given up a bit on Anime for the time being as I strive to find myself and where I really belong. I still got Bleach volumes 1-21 to keep me company and of course good Ole' Yu-Gi-Oh! and Fruits Basket. With time, I'll come back to Bleach. Of course, if Rukia suddenly reappears and things start getting electrifying again between her and Ichigo, I may make an early appearance.

Well, hope every one is doing well. Ta Ta For now! Sequora